Change

They say that change is the only constant. Some changes you embrace because you are making the choice and you are doing something that you need to do. But other changes are thrust upon you and you have to find a way to adjust. I often think of this exchange in Star Wars Episode I …

Self-Care

In an effort to develop some Self-Love I have been trying harder to care for myself a bit better. I tend to feel selfish when doing things for myself because there are so many times I am unable to function as a normal person but I'm beginning to understand how important it is to take …

I am afraid

I can feel the anxiety in my chest. I can feel the tears behind my eyes. I can feel the monster standing near and chipping away at me. Pieces falling away slowly but, I fear, surely. As I have been feeling better I haven't really felt stable. I am still able to go from feeling …

Thankful

As Thanksgiving arrives I am thankful for this little space to write about my thoughts and feelings through this journey of ups and downs. Although it has been rough for several months it is good to look around and remind myself of the good things I am thankful for. First and foremost I am thankful …

I Rise

Lately when people ask me how I am doing I can honestly answer "better". I've even said "good". I would not have said either of those a few weeks ago. The only way I can describe how I am feeling now is that it is like night and day. So very different, the opposite of …

Three Things

In working with my therapist we have determined that we need to work on my self esteem. I can't say I'm surprised, honestly I have struggled with my self esteem for as long as I can remember. I wonder if most people think I'm pretty confident. But that's not at all true. I can be …

Feeling

As I seem to be "leveling off" (for lack of a better term) after being so all over the place and everything being so over the top and exaggerated, I think I am starting to feel more "real" stuff. I'm not sure if that makes any sense. It's hard to explain. For the last several …