As I seem to be “leveling off” (for lack of a better term) after being so all over the place and everything being so over the top and exaggerated, I think I am starting to feel more “real” stuff. I’m not sure if that makes any sense.
It’s hard to explain.
For the last several months, this episode I’ve been going through has felt so scary and unfamiliar. Everything was the end of the world and everything hurt. I’ve really never been so confused and afraid of my own thoughts and feelings.
But now I’m starting to recognize my thoughts and feeling again. They make a little more sense to me, are a little more understandable and better reflect the reality of what is going on around me.
My emotions are still heightened, still exaggerated but not quite a much as before. At least so far.
I’m hoping that everything I have been doing to help myself is finally making a difference. I hope that I am finally getting better.
I have even had a few good days.