They say that change is the only constant. Some changes you embrace because you are making the choice and you are doing something that you need to do. But other changes are thrust upon you and you have to find a way to adjust.
I often think of this exchange in Star Wars Episode I
I get comfortable and content with the sameness of my life and environment and an unexpected change aggravates my anxiety. I internalize and blame myself for either the change itself or I get angry at myself for my inability to embrace the change.
I hurt and cry and miss what was. I fear what will be. I am uncomfortable with what is.
I’d like to just go with the flow and adjust easily to unexpected changes.
Find a way I can look back on what was with fondness without fearing what will be and while enjoying what is.
I’m working on it.
Meanwhile, life keeps changing whether I’m ready for it or not.