Wondering

Trigger warning: Talk of suicide. This week's news has been full of articles about two celebrity suicides and the study showing that suicide rates have risen by 30%. As someone who struggles with anxiety and depression, this kind of news can be difficult to navigate. I've shared a few articles on social media about reaching …

Self-Care

In an effort to develop some Self-Love I have been trying harder to care for myself a bit better. I tend to feel selfish when doing things for myself because there are so many times I am unable to function as a normal person but I'm beginning to understand how important it is to take …

I Rise

Lately when people ask me how I am doing I can honestly answer "better". I've even said "good". I would not have said either of those a few weeks ago. The only way I can describe how I am feeling now is that it is like night and day. So very different, the opposite of …

Three Things

In working with my therapist we have determined that we need to work on my self esteem. I can't say I'm surprised, honestly I have struggled with my self esteem for as long as I can remember. I wonder if most people think I'm pretty confident. But that's not at all true. I can be …

Feeling

As I seem to be "leveling off" (for lack of a better term) after being so all over the place and everything being so over the top and exaggerated, I think I am starting to feel more "real" stuff. I'm not sure if that makes any sense. It's hard to explain. For the last several …

A New Hope

Yesterday was a good day and so far today has been good as well. I'm cautiously optimistic. I had an appointment with my doctor and because I was feeling so all over the place we decided to be a bit more aggressive in trying to get me out of this depressive episode. We added another …

Returning

As the latest medication changes start to affect my system, I am happy that the panic attacks and increased anxiety have improved. But the sadness is returning. It should improve over time but I guess I have to go down again before up. The roller coaster I prefer to never ride. Last Friday my MIL …